Wednesday, May 5, 2010

Pin it up

Brooches! I love them. I own dozens - enamel, marcasite, plain silver, a couple of gold, some prim, others are great big hand-print sized things. I am indiscriminate about where I will pin a brooch. Sometimes you'll see them twinkling on my lapel, other times I use them as a kilt pin and if I am lucky enough to go somewhere demanding sparkle at night I'll pin one to a head band.

My friend, work neighbour and colleague took this extreme close up of one of my favourites last week. He has a new lens for his camera and calls it a "glass". I find that expression charming. Later he enhanced the photo on his computer so my scar is gone. I was quite excited to see me scarless.

Mon brooch:

The vest I have pinned it to is a favourite, not only because it is merino wool and the perfect boxy shape, but because it cost me four dollars at the Newtwon Markets. The two necklaces are also flea markets finds from Surry Hills.

Monday, May 3, 2010

That's no lady, that's my cat

The other night I posted a picture of Kate wearing her die-now-and-bother-me-no-more-with-your-worthlessness face. I mentioned that I have another cat and I do, a much nicer sweeter little dumpling of a cat who reminds me entirely of a woman who works in a cake shop.

Her proper name is Elvira but it just doesn't adhere. She is Ellie mostly, but will answer to Elwood, Elephant, Elton and Eldorado. She had a brother Thor but they don't keep in touch.

Ellie was one of four kittens left in a carton in a car park in western Sydney. A kind person turned the homeless family in at a local vet, and he sent them to the Unwanted Cats Unit at the local council. They in turn farmed them out to the Co-ordinator of their Look After Ill-treated Cat Families department and she advertised Ellie and her siblings on the Internet.

Clickety click and she came to live with us. For her first three days she lived on top of the skirting board in the dining room behind a huge cupboard. I don't know how she did that except she was very small. At any given time of day I could walk past and find my sweet spouse or Kate sprawled out flat, peering in under the cupboard, trying to coax Ellie out. She took her time, adapting to her living environment inch by inch: first she slunk out and sat near the leg of the cupboard, then she extended her patch to include the dining room table, soon after she walked around a chair and a month later she ventured into the lounge room.

These days Ellie's quite the traveller and also, I suspect, a pervert. She spends a lot of time on the front verandah hiding behind pot plants, ogling passers by. She is not a big cat, her legs are quite short and her nose is the colour of a pencil eraser. If Ellie were a person I suspect she'd look a little like Sherilyn Fenn in Twin Peaks and a little like a lady who works in a cake shop, all perma-wave hair and a full pouty mouth full of lipstick but not suggestive and not, well, sex-kitten like. Ellie would wear floral shifts and kitten heels, a pinny when she was in the kitchen and a scarf around her head, knotted under her chin British Royal family-style when she went to do the shopping. She'd carry a hand bag and not a shoulder bag. In her purse there would a be a lipstick - probably Max Factor - and a clean hanky.

She'd volunteer at the local Church too. Church of England, possibly.

Here's one I prepared earlier

I used to write poetry. This is one of them.


Capnography


1. Your Last Letter



It said you’d arrive on the twenty sixth

So we got the room ready, the wine,

The loaves, washed the dense cream cotton sheets.



I bought fresh flowers.


On the Sunday there was a picnic for you with

coloured cupcakes while the leftovers from Mass

headed home, children rooted by silence



In that clear May day that stretched across the park.

Everyone was glad to see you, thrilled by your

outcomes, arms outstretched, the gaudy icing,


admiring the baby.



I left early to walk home around the ribs of a bay

filled with fat fish tense as fists, tuning their

colour to the pumice grey of the silt



in the oddly clean salt water.

When I stopped they flicked away but if

I made my observations walking they ignored me.


I was their landscape.



All the way home it bothered me that I’d

come to your party laden with cheer and cakes

but no children, nothing to offer but



an opportunity to hold and observe that

loathsome vulnerability. Then I decided those fish,

they could swim out to deeper cold water



but they choose not to, or they can’t.



2. Checking the Future


My Tarot reader dealt the Empress

and crossed her with a Knight

then asked me, nervous, was it possible

I was pregnant from that loaded winter night?


All afternoon the cartoon images are with me:

crossing calm waters, nine empty glowing cups,

the holy glitter of the moon, a pretty woman

with flowers in her hair turning her sad face

Ffom a decent younger man.


Death, the Hanged Man, peals of

flames ringing from the Tower,


a thousand shiny grubs weaving

sticky strings around my womb. My tarot reader snaps

The last card , says the produce is spoilt.


Ditch it, she advises from her shrivelled mouth.

The waste, that waste, ditch it.


3. The Contract


For the last time, it makes no difference.

Phrase the question any way you choose

and the answer is still the same.

There are no children and there will not be.

True, we filled our lives with other things

but some ugly nights I lie along

your heavy hot back and think of all

the things I deny you. You don’t stir

from precious private sleep as I drag

my nails tenderly down your spine.

If I die beside you, drinking your scent,

cooked in your heat, basted with oils of your skin,

our friends will perform the autopsy. They’ll

scrap you from the rubber of my lips

and find your perfect cells under

the horns of my fingers. That’s love,

they’ll say. I’ll stink of it.



4. The Birth Notice


We’re due for a baby in our family soon.

No blood relative of mine but bonded by law.

Still, I see your skin in his skin

your eyes confuse me, you laugh his way.


Such a simple thing. It’s in all the books.

I’m contemplating your growing dome and the

fast slick cut with opiate as I wander the graves.

In the corner the pinwheels spin.


St Gerard Majella takes benign watch

Over scores of small tended plots. I’m in the

burial ground of another culture, cheerful slaps of

colour and epitaphs that read like pleas,


pinwheels stuck at random like wild flowers.

St Gerard has a prayer for desperate women to

beg for strength in the pale hours of birth but there’s

nothing he can do if no one hears. So the pinwheels spin,


False buds hopeful amongst a yard of unanswered prayers.

In the awful silence of the eerie crèche everything

recalls the first cry that couldn’t be crushed from the tiny chest -

the closely cupped head flushed with lustral waters,


the tiny who stayed for six weeks or nine days

or three hours, the pitiful bleak who never stirred.

The parents made ink marks of their cold feet and

still hands, gave them names, rocked their cribs, visit them yet.


Summer’s coming, you’re thinking of trousseaux.

You show me the small knitted jackets you made

with sugar coloured wool. I pray to St Gerard

as I walk away from the pinwheels


and praise your skin and laugh, how it will live on.

How powerful blood can be. How lucky and blessed

You are to bear your first baby in a hot Australian Christmas

when the flannel flowers bloom and cicadas shrill in the yellow heat.


copyright baxter 2009

Monday, April 26, 2010

Doing what you damn well please

In my last post I threatened to list all the things I use in creating my style. I'm going to start with something I'd love but will never have the courage and soul to muster - the "I will do as I damn well please for I am superior to you and all your brethren" look, as modelled by Kate:



Kate is forbidden to sleep on our bed. She doesn't need too - there are two lounges, countless blankets and a few hundred feet of sunny corners at her her immediate disposal. Therefore, in the way of all cats, Kate chooses the one place she can't have and shoots me this look if I attempt negotiations to resettle her.

If you are eagle eyed you might spy, behind Kate, the edge of a very lovely Prada skirt and an excellent vintage Jay Herbert bag, both of which I found in my recent New York foraging.

But back to my ingredients. Well, jewellery. I love it. I buy it at flea markets, pawn shops, antique shops, op shops and eBay. I've found it in Paris, Bordeaux, New York, London, Edinburgh, Melbourne and Sydney. I'll buy silver, gold, nickel, gilt, paste stones, semi-precious gems, diamonds, jet, platinum and lucite. I like it small and dainty or large and oppressive. I have deco and and Edwardian earrings, Victorian and 1970s rings, brooches from the WW2 era and beads from the sixties. I never leave home without a couple of pieces.
That's the left hand side of my dressing table featuring my bead collections.

Another ingredient I love, and have done for years, is handbags. Here are three of my favourites:
Ah, my Chanel girls. I found the brown one in the front at a flea market in Sydney, in its box, complete with dust bag, id card and hologram sticker. Forty dollars, I swear. But that's not the amazing thing - this is (and this still makes me want to hit myself with a something blunt and dangerous): there was a white one, being sold in the same condition - box, card, the lot, by the same person and I LEFT IT BEHIND. I didn't need two, I reasoned.

I still find it hard to talk about it.

The one in the middle is black with a Lucite clasp. $70, authentic, Chanel branding and stamps, found sad and dejected in a pile of fakes at the Bondi markets.

The third on is the jumbo 2.55. A glimpse for now but you will see more of her as this blog progresses.

The other thing I love is perfume. Again my love here is a broad church but I'm particularly keen on old, mysterious complex scents in plain elegant bottles. My two favourites are Jean Scherrer and Patou's 1000. Here's a selection from my dressing table.

You can see Cartier's Pasha scent there too - a bloke's scent crammed with sharp fresh lemon scents that are perfect for the Sydney summer - and Rocha's Femme, a fabulous dusty feminine scent filled with flowers and the fragrances of wood.

Next post: skirts, dresses and a smaller, more agreeable cat called Ellie.

Friday, April 23, 2010

Styling

I love style. I love the details of a person's style, I love to read about style and I love seeing what people own and use to create their style.

While I consume fashion magazine the way some people drink coffee (continuously, prone to a headache if I miss one) I'm not always enchanted by the people featured in the magazines. I don't think there's any skill to looking good when you're attended to by a cast of thousands and are in regular receipt of armfuls of free clothes. But when you're putting things together based on your own tastes and needs, when you're hunting and gathering your elements of style with a specific budget and within the limitations of of your time and lifestyle, well, that's when style, real style, becomes apparent.

In a short while (and by that I mean in somewhere between ten minutes and three days) I'm going to post my top ten favourite ingredients for creating my personal style. Before I do that I want to share some aspects of the remarkable style of Nat who sits one door up from me at work.

Sometimes I only going to work to see what Nat's wearing. She never disappoints. It might be a carefully blended mixture in black and white - an Anna Sui dress over a Chloe blouse, Wolford tights and Chi Mahara maryjanes. On Friday - if it's quiet and we're all confined to our offices - she'll be wearing a discreet Marc Jacobs knit with inky Paige jeans that just cover a pair of glossy black Marni platforms. Her style, like that of all stylish people, informs her attention to detail and is apparent in all aspects of her life and work. You should see her kitchen table if you're lucky enough to be invited to afternoon tea. You should her talk off the cuff on some complicated aspect of law. You should see her office:


There's a photo album open on the desk and the east Sydney skyline becomes the background for Manhattan.

Love that print! Note the Mulberry Maggie in green patent.

And you should see her dog! He's so stylish he's got his own crew.

Those squirrels are hanging on his every word.

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

Tossing it in




It is an admirable attribute, to never give up. Sometimes I think that knowing when to quit is just as valuable. I say this because I have just quit poetry, which is something that I never thought I would do. I have written it since I was nine. It has brought me more pleasure than anything I know. It has coloured my every thought and statement. But I have had to admit to myself that I write it really badly and that it is a waste of time and energy to keep doing it. I love it so much that I'd rather not do it all than do it badly.

It's like I've had my spleen removed. Sure it's an important attractive organ, and sure I have to make some adjustments but I'm not going to die. And no one can tell. THe scar's covered, the disadvantages of not having a spleen - or writing poetry - are invisible to onlookers. The recovery time is a few weeks but I suppose I'll see the scar forever.

Anyway, the declaration was important. Now I can concern myself with things that I am good at and use photographs to prove it.

Sunday, April 11, 2010

The washing up





When people say, "so what did you like best about New York?" I squint and waggle my head a little, trying to dislodged the badly shaped sentences because there is no one thing to like best. King Kong isn't there, I didn't see the Northern lights, Truman Capote didn't meet me for lunch at the Moonstruck diner.

It was everything, I try to explain. I saw Christopher Walkin on stage in an excellent play, I went to charity shops that sold mint condition pieces of Max Mara and Pucci like it was no big deal, the cook in my favourite diner used fresh peas in my vege plate, there were black squirrels in Central Park who posed agaist piles of snow, I could buy Bumble and Bumble shampoo in Target, the architecture is beautiful, the cemetries outside of Manhattan are enormous, the news stands sell Twizzlers.

And that's just start. I've been home for three weeks now, unpacked all my loot, settled the cast iron cat on the kitchen table and stared wistfully at my photos. We had such a great time. We couldn't live there, we don't think. Paris, easily, London, probably. Ireland, certainly. But New York City is such a massive concept. If you live there you'd would trouble leaving. In some ways it is its own world, completely unconnected to this world the rest of us live in.

But we'll definitely go back. I can't wait.

So to put New York and indeed March 2010 to bed, here's few more photos. In a day or so there'll be another unrelated blog about giving up poetry and then this will probably turn into one of those "I love all my clothes and yours too" blogs.

Happy times.